margie_sue

...since I have actually posted anything worth reading.
Really it's been since July...almost 5 months.
Okay so what has happened in those 5 months...

-I took Drivers Ed when I got back from CA
-I turned 17
-School started
-I applied to college and am awaiting my acceptance letter
-I got a job
-I got a car
-I got my own checkbook
-I got a "Promise Ring" from Eythan
-Dad got laid off from his job
-Mom is considering getting a full time job at a local clinic
-Christine is doing really well in college
-Robert (her boyfriend) is considering going into the National Guard
-Eythan's dad disowned him and doesn't talk to him anymore
-I recieved highest honors for the first marking period in school
-Eythan and I bought a bunny named Buddy
-Eythan got knee surgery and I accidently got him stoned on Vicodin (which was interesting)
-My best friend Hannah O. just turned 17
-I'm actually celebrating Christmas this year but with Eythan's family
-I've gotten back into playing video games
-Ive created a list of 200+ books I want to read

...and wow my life is really boring...

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I wish I had a lot of money so I can buy all the art on my "Wishlist" on deviantart!!!!!

Holy crap! I havent posted ANYTHING since July 28th...need to update you on my life!

Will do when I have time!

LOL!

But not now!

IM GOING TO NH IN 3 DAYS TO SEE MY BEST FRIEND RENEE AND GO TO HIPPYFEST! SOOOO EXCITED! 
















(NOT TO MENTION IT WILL DISTRACT ME FROM THINKING ABOUT MY SOCIAL SECURITY # BEING STOLEN...BASTARDS!)

California Trip

Thurs June 19: Our flight out of Burlington left pretty early so we were up and out of the house by 3am. We took an hour and a half Jet Blue flight from Burlington to JFK in New York and then a second 5 hours and 40 minute flight to San Fran. It was a looong flight but the fact we were flying Jet Blue made all the difference compared to the trip we took to Florida this past winter. We landed in San Fran around 11:30am and my Aunt Susie was there waiting for us. We hung out in the city for awhile until my Cousin Kelly got out of classes from the Art Academy.
Fri June 20: We spent friday recooperating from our jetlag and just chilled around my Aunt's house in Cloverdale which was nice cause I was sooo dead!
Sat June 21: On Saturday Kelly, Christine and I went to Yorty Creek which is a part of Sonoma Lake because it was so HOT!
Sun June 22: Sunday was Susie's big BBQue which was really nice. My Cousins Kelly and Michelle, Michelle's husband Ian, Christine and I all played Scrabble which was a lot of fun. Haha "Ooze-Booze-Boozer-Boozers" LOL. Good times.
Mon June 23: On Monday my mom, Aunt Susie and their friend Mary all went shopping and gambling. Christine and I just hung out all day and basically read for hours on end which wasn't too bad. I'm reading Sweeney Todd and she's reading the entire Little House on the Prairie books again. In the evening everyone went to go see 'Sex in the City', Uncle Bruce and I just chilled and watched 'Hidalgo' which is now one of my favorite movies. (Viggo Mortensen *drools*)
Tues June 24: On Tuesday mom, Christine and I drove down to my Grandparents' house down in Sonoma to have lunch with my Great Aunt Ruth (I think) and her daughter Patty. I didn't really remember them but Grandpa seemed happy to see his sister and they talked about Germany and coming to America through Ellis Island which was pretty cool to listen to.

Grandpa Herman and his sister Ruth.


Mom and Patty.

Me, Christine, Mom and Grandma Mildred.

Wed June 25: Wednesday mom, my Cousin Michelle, Christine and I went to the Plaza and had lunch in the Park which was really nice. We walked around and looked in the shops and stuff and had a really good time. 
Thurs June 26: We went shopping with Grandma because she wanted to buy Mary a birthday present because her birthday was on the 28th. We were considering going to a Winery and walking around the grounds but we never ended up going.
Fri June 27: Woot Woot! We went shopping in Vacaville which is a huge deal because there are no malls or outlets in Vermont. I got a bunch of new clothes which I'm so excited to wear once school starts! Yay!
Sat June 28: Saturday we were discussing going to the ocean but we were all too tired from shopping the previous day so Kelly and I spent most of the day baking vegan chocolate chip cookies, homemade gaucamole and a yummy fruit salad for our little picnic that we had out in the back yard. 

Me, Christine and Kelly! :D

Sunday June 29: Sunday was another chill day for me because Susie, mom and Christine went to Berkeley to find my other Cousin, Megan a new apartment. I hung out...read my book and watched 'Monty Python: Life of Brian' which was uber funny. My friend Grace, who lives in Santa Rosa called and asked me if I wanted to go to Pride with her (San Fran's Annual Gay Pride Festival) but I couldn't which was too bad. 
Mon June 30: Monday was another hot day so while Christine and Aunt Susie crashed and took naps, mom and I went to the movies to see 'Wanted' the new Angelina Jolie movie which was SO KICKASS!!!
Tues July 1: Tuesday we drove back to my Grandparents and hung out.
Wed July 2: Super fun yesterday!!! Mom, Michelle, Christine, and I all went to Jack London State Park which was so cool. We hadn't been there in over 8 years so I didn't really remember it but it was still cool. We went to his house, hiked up to the lake he made, walked around his farm and winery AND picked blackberries! 


Jack London's "House of Happy Walls."

Jack London's dream home called Wolf House which burnt down before he moved in.


Cottage

Vineyards=Pretty!

London Lake.

Blackberries! <3333
Thurs July 3: Today we drove back to my Aunt's and aren't really doing much. I'm blogging. Christine's on the phone with Robert. Mom and Susie went to Eukia to go food shopping for the big BBQue tomorrow. I'll probably start packing and organizing my suitcase later. Tomorrow is "Happy 4th of July Day" haha and hopefully I'll remember to take lots of pics of the family. Then Saturday Susie drives us back to the SF Airport and we take a 12:20pm flight back to JFK. We should get home around 1:30am Sunday morning. Yay...don't you just love traveling?!


Oooh almost forgot more pics!

Grandma has lots of lizards in her garden. This one got stuck in one of her buckets.

(Not really that good of a pic) One of Michelle's chickens before Grandma started yelling and running after them to get out of her garden haha.

Queeny! <333

 I <3 California!!!!

 Updates on Margie Sue's Life
-Exams sucked...
    Honors Geometry I feel confident about
    Gym was SO EASY
    Honors English 10 I totally aced
    Honors US History I got a 78 but I'm satisfied with that 'cause that exam was SO HARD
    Cultures and Cuisine I got a 98 on which was the best grade in the class! Woot!
    Honors Biology was DEATH...totally failed the exam and either got a low C or high D overall for the 4th quarter :(
    Spanish III was okay...finding the subjunctive and the indicitive words was easy but vocab sucked...although it's good I know my swear words
-School is OVER!!!! Thank the Lord! Summer vaca!!!!!!
-I only have one more year @ LR then COLLEGE
-Ryan is visiting for 5 days and so far we've had SO much fun hanging out
-Christine graduates tomorrow!!!! Can't believe it!
-California on THURSDAY!!!!! CAN'T WAIT!
-Eythan and I have been together for 3 weeks (whoopy-doo I know but still he's such a sweet guy) 

Man where has time gone? It's the second to last week of school and it feels like June should already be over!
Dad officially lost his job. FUCKING FED-EX ASSHOLES bought out DHL/Astar and are affecting the ENTIRE state of Ohio. Over 100,000 people are being affected by this. Even the state Senators are getting involved. So how does this affect me besides seeing my dad cry for maybe the 3rd time in my whole 16 years of existence? I am officially glued to Lynon State College, the parental unit made it abundantly clear that's the only school they can afford for my college because they get 25% off the tuition if siblings go together (God kill me now!) My dreams of ever going to Tufts or BU are crushed and I'm already looking for a job so I can save up and get my Master's. Honesty, 16 year olds should not have this much stress in their lives! I wish I could be a housewife, all you have to do is cook, clean, have sex and take care of your kids...which 3 out of the 4 I'm totally okay with. LOL. The thing that bothers me the most and it must have just developed this past year when we moved is when I get stressed I get very VERY bad stomach aches. Last month we thought I had to get my appendix removed or I had an issue with my pancreas...it's that bad. So I'm trying reallllllyyyy hard not to be stressed lately but common you can't really help it. 

BLAHHHHHH! 

4 more days of classes!
3 days of exams!

Oh and funny fact...I just had to write up this letter for my Honors Biology class. Karen and Liza will get a kick out of this.

AUGH!!!! STRESSSSS!!!!!

Prom was last weekend.
It sucked. 
My date was a dick.
My favorite part was dressing up.
But I looked pregnant.

Got signed up with summer drivers ed.
Yay!
Still have to fix my schedule for next year.
12 more days of school.
Still haven't totally figured out my summer gym credit.

I won my first tennis match yesterday against St. Albans. 6-3. 6-2.
Our last game ison Tuesday down in Middlebury. 
I get out of school @ 11:45am.

I have a new boyfriend.
His name is Eythan.
And yes that's how you spell his name.
He's a good kisser LOL.
Kayla, Eric, Eythan and I are all double dating Monday cause we have no school.

My crazy New Jersey relatives are coming up this weekend.
Bahhhh!!!

Tomorrow marks exactly one year we have lived here.
Somedays I hate.
Someays I love it.

Wednesday is Ms. Peters "Good-Bye" Party. 
I'm preparing myself not to cry.

Thursday is my Food Exam.
I'm really excited!!!

I have been officially referred to as a best friend :D
My besties are Hannah O, Kayla, Hannah K, Amber, Carly, and Phylicia.

I don't miss Brewster at all.
And I wouldn't care if I didn't see anyone from there again.
I know the feeling is mutual because everyone has ignored me since I told them how upset I was that they don't talk to me anymore...and no one has. 
Except Ryan!

Oh RyRy! 
My only BA friend left. 
Who woulda thunk?!

LOL.
I'm happy today.

I have friends and a really sweet boyfriend!
Summer is almost here!
All Haters can eat shit!

:)

SEVEN THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1) powdered donuts
2) cotton balls
3) BIG barn spiders
4) the dark [although i dont sleep with my night-light anymore cause it broke]
5) the feeling someone is watching me
6) breaking a bone/surgery
7) having my friends forget me [too late?]

SEVEN THINGS YOU LIKE THE MOST
1) laughing REALLY hard
2) my cat Rosie
3) cooking
4) movies [cheesey romance ones]
5) swimming in the ocean 
6) reading
7) dancing in the rain/puddle jumping

SEVEN RANDOM FACTS ABOUT YOU
1) for me art is more of a hobby than a talent
2) i LOVE making funny accents
3) i talk to myself most of the time
4) i can't drink liquor to save my life
5) i have the bad habit of chewing on pen caps [waiting for the day when the pen explodes in my mouth lol]
6) i still wear the hand-me-down clothes i got like 3 years ago
7) if i ever got 'Made' i'd want to be a jazz/tap dancer

SEVEN THINGS YOU PLAN TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1) go to a Red Sox v. Yankees baseball game
2) spend a significant amount of time in France seeing ALL the art in the Louvre and the Paris Opera House
3) learn sign language
4) go work in a third world country and help needy people
5) go to another '1964:The Tribute' concert with Christine
6) adopt a kid from Africa
7) find a [nice] guy and actually stay with him

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN’T DO
1) see an animal and not call it cute
2) do a split
3) forgive and forget...especially forget
4) golf for beans
5) go a month without talking to my best friend Hannah
6) sleep well without my cat sleeping under the blankets with me
7) shop for more than an hour without getting a migraine [lol explains the hand-me-downs]

SEVEN THINGS THAT ATTRACT YOU TO THE OPPOSITE (and same!) SEX
1) big [happy] smile
2) someone who has a legit goal in life
3) someone who understands my mood swings and wierdness
4) someone who won't get scared off by my dad
5) intelligence/being "world wise"
6) someone who i can talk to for HOURS
7) someone who can to take care of themselves and me if they have to

SEVEN THINGS YOU SAY THE MOST
1) don't judge me
2) HAHAHAHA
3) boo-yah-cah-cha
4) um...
5) hey hannah did u do your homework last night?
6) i'm basically jesus in woman form
7) no thank you ms. peters haha

SEVEN CELEB CRUSHES
1) gerard butler
2) natalie portman
3) harrison ford
4) angelina jolie
5) john legend
6) naomi watts
7) sean connery

SEVEN PEOPLE YOU WANT TO SEE TAKE THIS TEST
1) christine
2) hannah s.
3) robert
4) mom
5) tryan
6) ms. peters lol
7) ryan

So...
...where do I start? 


Okay so I honestly think I have a knack for pissing people off...it must be one of my many hidden talents :P But yeah besides pissing off 99.999999% of my old friends at Brewster, I also managed to piss off Phylicia. I don't even know why but lately (meaning like last week when this happened) she's been just really bitter to me. Even Hannah and Kayla have noticed and asked me about it. I'll give you a few examples...one day during our lunch period (usually its Kayla, Hannah O. Carly, Amber, Phylicia and me) and I'm all excited telling people I'm vegetarian and stuff and out of the fucking blue Phylicia spurts off going "Oh my God I would never do that! That's so bad for you! You shoud eat meat! I love meat! AND ON AND ON!" So I try to explain to her how if you do it right you can be really super healthy being a vegetarian. But she doesn't agree with me so I just drop it...obviously she's stuck to her ways,so whatever. Then we were taking a standardized test in English class and when Mr. Eastman was handing them out I was like, "Oh hey, you know I don't think I ever did these tests in private school..." And Phylicia and Doug just start freaking out saying "Well why don't you go back then!!!" I was really hurt by it but I just ignored it cause what's the use getting in a fight about it. But later on (right before lunch) I was talking to one of the girls on my tennis team about it and she was like, "Wtf? That was a huge part of your life Margaret. Don't be ashamed to talk about it." So I went to my 20 minute study hall before lunch and vented to Hannnah O. and Kayla. When we went to lunch together and sat down Phylicia came over got up in my face and asked my why I was talking shit about her during study hall. (Now, honestly can someone say MIDDLE SCHOOL DRAMA!) I forced myself to calmly explain to her that I wasn't talking a mouthful of shit I was simply talking about my frustrations with her attitude towards me lately. Anyway I'll save you the verbal abuse I gave her but I basically told her if she didn't like what I talk about (meaning my past and old school) that she could go fuck off and deal with her shit. (Now I'm sorry but I don't take crap from people lol)

Thank God I had a tennis match that day and was able to talk to Jericho and Paula (my tennis besties) and they made me feel better. The thing that really gets me is is the fact that I almost made it through the whole year at my new school without making enemies and stuff. Lol. I felt like I was back in middle school getting in bitch fights with other girls....God something I do NOT miss!

Anyway....I texted both of them :
"It would be nice to tell me when I'm bothering you then being secretly pissed at me all the time." 
I didn't get a reply back from Phylicia but Doug wrote back:
"It's not being pissed, more like really annoyed."
"You know you could be a big boy and tell me that."
"Well you don't really seem the approachable type."

Gawd. Well sorrrrry! >.< 

Okay this is how I feel...I feel like I don't belong anywhere. I lost the majority of my friends back home (from being honest of all things) and I piss people off here from even mentioning my old school and the past of I have in NH. BLAHHHH! 

that was last weeks drama...ready for some more? =[

Yesterday I was sick from school because I've been having some really bad stomach pain lately and I couldn't get out of bed.
Today went alright, nothing really excited happened all day until 7th period. I went into Biology and I had lost my blue pass (the pass teachers have to sign when u miss a day of school) so that kinda sucked. And Mr. Hennemuth was in a really wierd mood. So he gave back our tests and all was normal until he turned on the movie we were watching about Gregor Mendel and then he FLIPPED! I think it was because the majority of our class is really loud and really rude. But all of a sudden Mr. Hennemuth threw a thick textbook across the room and started punching things and hitting things with his grade book. He finished with running out of the room and slamming the door. 

Now everyone in our class started laughing at this. Me...I started having a panic attack....a BIG one. See...I had an abusive teacher when I was in graded school so it just brought me back to that and I freaked out. I started crying and had to leave the room....

Basically, I've just had a really bad past week. =[

(I'm not looking for pity. It's just nice writing this down.)

Our computer has been broken so that's why I haven't put these up sooner. But here they are:
 

I find myself hating all my friends from Brewster....well hate is a strong word...but let's just say I'm fucking furious with all of you! I have worked my ass off this year trying to stay in contact with all of you. I must have sent over 1,000 text messages/countless emails (not to mention the birthday gifts I've sent) and close to 100...100...letters. Wanna know how many I got? Make a guess before you even finishing reading this! Just guess! 10? 15? NO! Of course not! I got ..4...4 letters...and two out of those four was from people I either haven't seen in years or I didn't go to school with them last year! Cheyenne, Karen, Hannah and Ellen sent me letters....can you believe it? Two of those people I'm not even that close with...especially Ellen, common now! And how many times have I driven down, made the 3 hour trip, the $40 in gas trip to come visit you guys! Two people, TWO people have visited me in Vermont...Ryan and Tryan. I mean people if you were really that upset I was leaving Brewster...I mean you sure acted upset...don't you think you would want or even like to talk to me...that's what I assumed. But you know what they say about people who assume things! And dont you dare say you were too busy....I've been just as busy as any other kid in highschool with their homework and sports and other extracurricular things and I worked my ass off!!!!! For what?! For what exactly?!

I dont even know what to say anymore....there are a lot of things I'd like to say but my relatives and my mom now have LJ and they probably wouldn't appreciate my dirty mouth....make out it as you will....obviously no one has noticed me stop staying in contact with them out of my rage...haha, it's almost pathetic how I still try to hold on to my friendships. And the even sadder part is I noticed this 6-7 months ago...its not a recent issue. Maybe my family was right...that I should have burned all my bridges when I moved. 

Whatever...I'm so done trying!

Now I'm questioning the meaning of, "That's what friends are for!"

 




Lol. I had to cut the article in pieces cause our scanner isn' t that big, but there you have it. =]

And I will post some D.C pics later because its really nice outside and I want to go finish my book, The Amber Spyglass.